She’s strong, yet weak of fear
Beautiful, yet a farce
independent, yet limited by the group
Free, yet held by the worldwide prison

The world is a flaw in cross section - women slowly being granted freedoms by merit of the squeaky wheel. Our, My value based on my breast, butt, and will to please the greater gender. Being skilled in chores, cooking, and beauty are seen as traits to give care and attention - to join as one.

Our beauty is to be gauged by a facade, natural skin has flaws and are concealed to hide truth.

The above can be noted by political minds as feminist… dangerous talk. But in all honesty - for me it is realization, it is my own life and knowing that most narrow-minded males will always see me from 45 degrees down at my breasts… or look above me as I give them no added value with my own simple true self.

Unless I offer a maintained space or my body for their pleasure - my value is none. Most are angry of this and thus feminist groups fight this norm to better women’s chances to be equal.

Controversial as it may seem from someone as myself - I don’t wish equality and I don’t fight the norm. I chose to simply live my way and after standing in both sides of the fence; I realize the only true owner of my value is myself. No matter the world and it’s politico cackles; I choose how I wish to look on any day, I choose the tasks I wish to complete, I choose the facade or to bear full self in avoidance of makeup, I chose the men I have sex with ( Be it romantic or simple pleasure).

My choices on a micromanaged level are my own. While I understand my wages and the opportunities in others hand may still be out of my control - I control how those norms affect me and if I allow them to drag me down into submission or simply walk away from the problem to distance myself from extra stress.

A thought I had as I showered tonight. For those whom read within the male form, possibly in spite of my words, reading that last phrase burning your narrow minds on that obvious question – I have not dressed yet. I in fact do not plan to dress and simply sleep tonight reliant on the sheets and my own body for warmth. The local temperature deems this as the best choice and I honestly have been informed of many benefits of this form of rest.

As for other women, others within my plight of devalued form, please read and know that you can still bring self value over world value. And your value does not assess by your bust size, bra size, underwear size, ability for your butt to move in tiktok-able fashion. I still struggle with my breast size as a price tag of my beauty. Large busted girls - especially whom have an otherwise petite figure know what I am saying.

Value yourself and know that it is the rest of the narrow minded world that must find the funds to obtain your rarity. Goodnight my darlings, my apologies for such lacked posts as classes ramp up again. That along with some relapse into my mind and dark places as our world burns. I will be fine, I am stone to be weathered no matter the cracks, breaks, and erosion I possess.