The echoing 80’s ballad of Summer Sex and Sunsets

May class sessions take hiatus for the generally ruled break during summer. No one tells you in school prior to life - that summer vacations are no longer fun after high school. Responsibility and monetary demand overshadow pools, bikini shopping, and ice cream.


Once amid Grade school and Junior status of High School, my summers were family trips and self dread of jokes or gazes upon my delayed puberty… the glow up that missed the bus…. a lot. My glow up must not have had the correct change every year until before my senior year. We entertained the American dream of grand canyons, Westerly settled relatives, and (in my case) overtly grand manors with more rooms and staff than most Ikea’s.


I don’t dangle my family’s wealth in front of others, I tend to prefer earning my keep and not letting money define me. It surely isn’t the dream solution people think it is. I’m diverting… let’s get back on track.


Senior year of High School i entered glowed and pubert (it’s not a word… but I’m making it one out of the justification that no one is grading my blog) over the summer. Suddenly I wasn’t “the flat nerd” and guys seemed suddenly interested in me. This is a dangerous mix of Teen and Post-Teen wills that I was still quite uncaring about. Guy’s wanted to date me… that last 2 words of their lips, not minds which wished to deflower me.


Summer in the 80’s song is the guy telling his love, his crush, his one - that after the guy’s affection has played and defiled with the many boy’s that came to vacation for the summer. He would still be there for her, his love un-wavered by her affections of that moment and season. From Senior year until even now… Boy’s of Summer have come into my school breaks and some I have toyed in the past. My last few summers have been reflection of myself and my own dark recesses easily distract from the chiseled boys of summer fun.


A pandemic also tends to screw up your summer, as would be obvious to us all. This summer I mostly continue to look in and also outward to those directly near me. KaiMei, my savior and dearest - mentioned in prior writings, spends time on repairing cars and maintaining the yard. He’s enough summer boy for me to watch from the house pool. I spend time with Jag on her streams and lately she’s been dealing with her own self reflections and thus I have stepped back to allow her the space to think. She’s my new love and I know she’s confided in me some very deep feelings and she’s very strong.


So if I delay or go silent on here; I’m doing life and exploring myself. I suggest everyone do the same! It’s refreshing and brings things to light sometimes. <3